1 00:00:48,583 --> 00:00:50,208 I think of myself 2 00:00:50,500 --> 00:00:54,333 as someone who has paid to be 3 00:00:54,708 --> 00:00:56,458 the person he wanted to be. 4 00:00:59,417 --> 00:01:03,208 I've paid with my very... existence. 5 00:01:05,708 --> 00:01:07,708 I dreamt of the devil as a child. 6 00:01:07,833 --> 00:01:10,250 I would say to him, 7 00:01:10,417 --> 00:01:13,250 "If you make me famous, 8 00:01:13,875 --> 00:01:16,000 one day, I'll pay you back." 9 00:01:21,542 --> 00:01:24,375 My sexuality is my devil. 10 00:01:26,042 --> 00:01:28,708 At times, I've thought of things... 11 00:01:28,875 --> 00:01:32,292 of darkness, of real self-destruction. 12 00:01:34,417 --> 00:01:38,000 When you are attracted to the void, 13 00:01:38,167 --> 00:01:40,792 to a sexuality that doesn't exist, 14 00:01:40,958 --> 00:01:44,542 to images that would make anyone vomit, 15 00:01:45,417 --> 00:01:47,833 something's not right. 16 00:01:49,292 --> 00:01:51,542 And when you lose control, 17 00:01:52,333 --> 00:01:53,875 it leads to chaos. 18 00:01:55,417 --> 00:01:57,833 MILAN ITALY 19 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:04,917 I can no longer be a porn actor. 20 00:02:05,042 --> 00:02:07,417 Rocco Siffredi has held me prisoner 21 00:02:07,542 --> 00:02:08,792 for the past 30 years, 22 00:02:08,917 --> 00:02:10,875 like an insect in a spider's web. 23 00:02:11,042 --> 00:02:12,042 Those days are over. 24 00:02:12,167 --> 00:02:15,917 From now on, my priorities are Rozsa, Lorenzo and Leonardo. 25 00:02:16,083 --> 00:02:17,708 Screw the rest. 26 00:02:17,917 --> 00:02:19,583 For the first time 27 00:02:19,708 --> 00:02:21,458 in my life, 28 00:02:22,042 --> 00:02:25,500 the devil between my legs 29 00:02:25,833 --> 00:02:29,250 won't be a part of me anymore. 30 00:02:52,542 --> 00:02:55,208 TWO YEARS EARLIER 31 00:02:56,708 --> 00:02:59,333 BUDAPEST HUNGARY 32 00:04:27,208 --> 00:04:28,625 I don't know. 33 00:05:18,500 --> 00:05:20,417 My name is Rocco Tano. 34 00:05:21,083 --> 00:05:25,208 I was born in a small town in central Italy, 35 00:05:25,375 --> 00:05:26,708 on the Adriatic, 36 00:05:26,875 --> 00:05:30,042 on May 4, 1964. 37 00:05:30,208 --> 00:05:33,417 My father was a road-mender, my mother was a housewife. 38 00:05:33,583 --> 00:05:35,625 I have five brothers and a sister. 39 00:05:41,708 --> 00:05:43,917 When I was seven or eight, 40 00:05:44,417 --> 00:05:48,625 I began to feel these urges coming from between my legs, 41 00:05:48,750 --> 00:05:51,708 like a fire I didn't understand. 42 00:05:51,875 --> 00:05:54,625 They were so strong and powerful 43 00:05:54,750 --> 00:05:57,292 that I had to touch myself. 44 00:05:58,042 --> 00:06:02,417 I became obsessed with sex. 45 00:06:18,667 --> 00:06:21,083 The first time I masturbated, 46 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:22,708 I was eight or nine. 47 00:06:22,875 --> 00:06:26,667 I came home for lunch, 48 00:06:26,833 --> 00:06:30,333 and went into the bathroom. The window opened 49 00:06:30,500 --> 00:06:33,375 onto the balcony where my mother did the laundry. 50 00:06:34,167 --> 00:06:36,958 I was in the middle of masturbating. 51 00:06:37,125 --> 00:06:41,625 Suddenly, I could feel someone watching me. 52 00:06:41,792 --> 00:06:46,500 I looked and saw my mother's face, watching me. 53 00:06:46,625 --> 00:06:49,750 It was a shocking, surreal experience. 54 00:06:49,917 --> 00:06:52,833 I was terribly ashamed. 55 00:06:53,167 --> 00:06:56,833 She gave me a little smile, 56 00:06:57,000 --> 00:06:58,750 which I took to mean, 57 00:06:59,792 --> 00:07:02,125 "Don't worry, it's OK. You've become a man. 58 00:07:02,250 --> 00:07:03,583 You've grown up." 59 00:07:03,750 --> 00:07:07,083 A smile that said, 60 00:07:07,875 --> 00:07:09,167 "I'm on your side." 61 00:07:54,542 --> 00:07:58,083 ORTONA ITALY 62 00:08:11,125 --> 00:08:14,625 In choosing a career in porn, I defied everyone. 63 00:08:14,750 --> 00:08:17,000 Even my family, my entire family. 64 00:08:17,167 --> 00:08:20,667 My mother asked me, "Rocco, is this what you want to do? 65 00:08:20,792 --> 00:08:23,083 Does it make you happy? 66 00:08:23,250 --> 00:08:25,458 Then go ahead. Do it." 67 00:08:30,833 --> 00:08:34,625 The poverty Rocco and I lived in, as children 68 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:36,708 shaped our personalities. 69 00:08:37,333 --> 00:08:40,917 We were always told sex was for rich people, 70 00:08:41,083 --> 00:08:42,042 not for us. 71 00:08:42,208 --> 00:08:47,625 Only boys with money could seduce a woman, 72 00:08:47,750 --> 00:08:50,000 and get something from her. 73 00:08:53,542 --> 00:08:58,500 I have always wondered what our life would be like, 74 00:08:58,625 --> 00:09:00,708 mine and my cousin's, 75 00:09:01,292 --> 00:09:03,083 if his penis 76 00:09:03,208 --> 00:09:04,958 hadn't stood to attention. 77 00:09:05,708 --> 00:09:07,792 It's crazy, but it's the truth. 78 00:09:07,958 --> 00:09:10,958 It's my destiny, my life story. 79 00:09:12,958 --> 00:09:15,875 I might have become the priest 80 00:09:16,083 --> 00:09:18,208 my mother always dreamt of. 81 00:09:18,333 --> 00:09:21,250 Or a road-mender like my father. 82 00:09:21,750 --> 00:09:23,917 When you see your parents struggling, 83 00:09:24,083 --> 00:09:26,917 month after month, what do you want from life? 84 00:09:27,083 --> 00:09:30,167 You want to be able to give them something better. 85 00:09:30,333 --> 00:09:32,417 That's what I dreamt of. 86 00:09:32,542 --> 00:09:36,167 I told myself, "You must do something to help your mother." 87 00:09:36,333 --> 00:09:38,042 So I used my cock! 88 00:09:38,167 --> 00:09:41,583 "He'll help me out!", I told myself. 89 00:09:42,708 --> 00:09:45,417 BUDAPEST HUNGARY 90 00:12:26,250 --> 00:12:29,000 Honey, grab the dicks. 91 00:12:29,125 --> 00:12:32,125 Go like this, you understand? 92 00:12:32,250 --> 00:12:33,958 Like this. 93 00:12:34,083 --> 00:12:36,250 Watch the facial expressions! 94 00:12:36,958 --> 00:12:38,625 Be expressive. 95 00:12:39,292 --> 00:12:41,500 Great! Beautiful! 96 00:12:41,625 --> 00:12:44,000 Valentina, watch your facial expression. 97 00:12:44,333 --> 00:12:45,708 Gorgeous! Fantastic! 98 00:12:46,500 --> 00:12:49,458 When I finished school, I got a job in a bank. 99 00:12:50,083 --> 00:12:51,208 In Milan. 100 00:12:52,542 --> 00:12:53,542 I did it 101 00:12:53,667 --> 00:12:55,917 so my mother could say, "My son works in a bank." 102 00:12:56,042 --> 00:12:59,958 She was happy and my father was proud. 103 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:05,833 But the Rocco Siffredi tornado swept through my life. 104 00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:10,583 And I asked myself, "What am I doing with my life? 105 00:13:10,833 --> 00:13:13,375 My cousin 106 00:13:13,542 --> 00:13:16,708 is doing what I dream of, day and night. 107 00:13:16,875 --> 00:13:18,625 He's having sex with women, 108 00:13:18,750 --> 00:13:21,792 and he's getting paid for it. Why not me?" 109 00:13:22,875 --> 00:13:27,250 So I left the bank to work with him. 110 00:13:27,417 --> 00:13:29,000 He pushed his producers 111 00:13:29,292 --> 00:13:31,625 to try me out. He told them, 112 00:13:31,792 --> 00:13:34,958 "Look at his penis. It's as big as mine, maybe bigger!" 113 00:13:35,125 --> 00:13:36,917 He was exaggerating, 114 00:13:37,042 --> 00:13:38,667 but I was thrilled! 115 00:13:38,833 --> 00:13:39,708 Very quickly, 116 00:13:39,833 --> 00:13:42,125 I had to face a harsh reality, 117 00:13:42,875 --> 00:13:44,792 that hit me like a slap across the face. 118 00:13:44,917 --> 00:13:46,958 When they yelled out, 119 00:13:47,083 --> 00:13:49,333 "It's your turn now. Action!" 120 00:13:49,500 --> 00:13:51,542 I just couldn't do it. 121 00:13:51,875 --> 00:13:53,583 I couldn't get hard, 122 00:13:53,750 --> 00:13:55,917 and Rocco was forced 123 00:13:56,750 --> 00:13:59,250 to penetrate the women instead of me. 124 00:13:59,833 --> 00:14:00,917 Because... 125 00:14:01,917 --> 00:14:03,833 I simply couldn't do it. 126 00:14:04,000 --> 00:14:05,375 So in the shots 127 00:14:05,625 --> 00:14:09,000 and the cutaways, thanks to the editing work, 128 00:14:09,167 --> 00:14:10,542 my face was on the screen. 129 00:14:10,708 --> 00:14:12,542 But the penis was always his. 130 00:14:15,417 --> 00:14:17,875 I've prepared everything. We've even filled this 131 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:19,458 with water. 132 00:14:21,750 --> 00:14:22,833 We'll have two teams. 133 00:14:23,000 --> 00:14:26,875 The girls throw water balloons at the guys. 134 00:14:27,042 --> 00:14:28,833 Let me have fun today. 135 00:14:29,000 --> 00:14:30,375 What does that mean? 136 00:14:30,750 --> 00:14:33,167 I knew you'd say that. 137 00:14:33,333 --> 00:14:35,958 - I made up a story. - What story? 138 00:14:36,125 --> 00:14:39,000 The guys are over here when the girls walk in. 139 00:14:39,167 --> 00:14:40,500 They're chatting, 140 00:14:40,875 --> 00:14:42,250 having fun. 141 00:14:42,375 --> 00:14:45,083 One of the guys dresses up as a rabbit 142 00:14:45,917 --> 00:14:48,708 and runs from the others who chase him on a motorbike. 143 00:14:48,875 --> 00:14:51,292 - When do they fuck? - Right after. 144 00:14:51,458 --> 00:14:53,167 When do they fuck? 145 00:15:05,792 --> 00:15:08,500 Damn it, let me finish! 146 00:15:08,667 --> 00:15:11,167 - Don't change my story. - Don't break my balls! 147 00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:20,417 Let me finish! 148 00:15:26,500 --> 00:15:27,833 Isn't my story funny? 149 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:31,042 All that crap would take ten hours to shoot! 150 00:15:31,167 --> 00:15:33,083 - Ten minutes. - OK, do it your way. 151 00:15:33,208 --> 00:15:36,542 But you're responsible if we have to shoot at night. 152 00:15:36,708 --> 00:15:40,125 We have to do the lesbian scene too... 153 00:16:08,417 --> 00:16:10,667 Drive a little faster. 154 00:16:11,708 --> 00:16:14,958 Good, but make sure you take the curve. 155 00:16:15,125 --> 00:16:16,583 Last take. 156 00:16:37,583 --> 00:16:40,292 BUDAPEST HUNGARY 157 00:16:50,542 --> 00:16:53,417 - Did you flip the toast ? - Yes. 158 00:16:58,375 --> 00:17:01,208 Take this one and put this one here. 159 00:17:02,542 --> 00:17:03,625 Toast? 160 00:17:04,250 --> 00:17:05,458 If you want. 161 00:17:10,708 --> 00:17:12,375 One particular day 162 00:17:12,542 --> 00:17:15,292 probably changed my entire life. 163 00:17:15,458 --> 00:17:18,208 We lived in low-income housing. 164 00:17:18,333 --> 00:17:19,833 From the balcony, 165 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:22,417 I could hear my mother's shrieks. 166 00:17:22,583 --> 00:17:24,333 Then Dad arrived 167 00:17:24,500 --> 00:17:27,208 on his little Vespa, wearing his suit and helmet. 168 00:17:27,375 --> 00:17:29,167 He looked up at the balcony. 169 00:17:29,333 --> 00:17:31,875 He looked up and didn't even cry. 170 00:17:33,917 --> 00:17:37,292 I can remember seeing something... 171 00:17:38,250 --> 00:17:39,833 horrible. 172 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:43,792 My brother's lifeless body on the bed. 173 00:17:49,750 --> 00:17:52,333 I can remember that the room 174 00:17:52,458 --> 00:17:54,417 I shared with my little brother, 175 00:17:54,583 --> 00:17:56,917 was filled with colored balloons 176 00:17:57,083 --> 00:17:59,792 from a birthday celebration. 177 00:17:59,958 --> 00:18:03,542 I began to furiously pop the balloons, 178 00:18:03,708 --> 00:18:06,917 as the anger boiled inside me. 179 00:18:07,833 --> 00:18:10,333 That image is engraved in my memory, 180 00:18:10,458 --> 00:18:11,875 since my childhood. 181 00:18:12,083 --> 00:18:16,042 A part of my mother died with Claudio. 182 00:18:21,708 --> 00:18:25,833 Until the day she died, she never smiled again. 183 00:18:28,833 --> 00:18:30,375 That frustration 184 00:18:30,583 --> 00:18:33,500 and pain turned her into a very violent person. 185 00:18:33,667 --> 00:18:35,833 Sometimes she'd grab my arm. 186 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:39,000 When she was angry, she'd seize my hand. 187 00:18:39,333 --> 00:18:41,000 My wrist, in fact. 188 00:18:41,417 --> 00:18:46,042 She would bite me so hard that it left marks. 189 00:18:47,000 --> 00:18:48,792 Even after my brother died, 190 00:18:48,958 --> 00:18:52,375 my mother continued to serve him dinner. 191 00:18:52,542 --> 00:18:57,042 My father would get mad at her. "That's enough! He's gone!" 192 00:19:03,250 --> 00:19:07,083 For 30 years, my mother wore black. 193 00:19:07,500 --> 00:19:08,542 Nothing but black! 194 00:19:08,708 --> 00:19:12,042 She made my father go to the cemetery every day. 195 00:19:12,833 --> 00:19:15,458 Come rain or shine... 196 00:19:19,833 --> 00:19:21,958 My mother had a very strong personality. 197 00:19:22,083 --> 00:19:24,875 We called her "the General". 198 00:19:26,125 --> 00:19:30,250 If anyone raised a hand to me, 199 00:19:30,417 --> 00:19:32,708 my mother stood up for me, not my father. 200 00:19:32,875 --> 00:19:33,917 He was scared. 201 00:19:34,083 --> 00:19:37,792 She would go after people, armed with a broom, a hammer, 202 00:19:37,958 --> 00:19:40,333 a pitchfork or a pickaxe... 203 00:19:40,500 --> 00:19:41,958 I saw her throw vases! 204 00:19:42,125 --> 00:19:46,000 She would throw vases at people from the balcony! 205 00:19:47,500 --> 00:19:50,250 My mother was... a legend. 206 00:19:58,083 --> 00:20:00,083 Are we going to run? 207 00:20:00,250 --> 00:20:01,333 Let's go. 208 00:20:02,667 --> 00:20:03,958 Are you up for it? 209 00:20:06,833 --> 00:20:08,292 I'll beat you. 210 00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:09,917 You'll beat me? 211 00:23:11,167 --> 00:23:13,083 I had a pool cue, 212 00:23:13,500 --> 00:23:16,417 and I broke it over some guys. 213 00:23:28,542 --> 00:23:30,125 Can you put your dress on? 214 00:23:30,958 --> 00:23:32,958 I'll do your lipstick afterwards. 215 00:23:44,250 --> 00:23:47,417 Find something to put in her mouth. 216 00:23:47,583 --> 00:23:51,000 So we avoid showing her teeth. 217 00:23:54,125 --> 00:23:56,083 Get some tape. 218 00:23:56,458 --> 00:23:57,625 The red tape. 219 00:23:58,792 --> 00:24:00,583 How can she blow the guy 220 00:24:00,708 --> 00:24:03,500 if her mouth is taped? 221 00:24:03,667 --> 00:24:05,667 Don't worry. Just do it. 222 00:24:06,167 --> 00:24:07,375 For heaven's sake... 223 00:25:30,250 --> 00:25:31,542 - Mike Angelo? - Yes? 224 00:25:32,750 --> 00:25:34,958 Finish up, so we can continue. 225 00:25:52,333 --> 00:25:56,167 Mike, save some spontaneity for the camera. 226 00:25:56,708 --> 00:25:59,250 Sure, if you get the hard-on for me. 227 00:25:59,875 --> 00:26:01,917 I understand, but... 228 00:26:02,083 --> 00:26:04,292 If she gets all worked up now, off-camera, 229 00:26:04,458 --> 00:26:07,292 she'll be spent. Then what do we do? 230 00:26:09,208 --> 00:26:11,125 You tell him! 231 00:26:11,750 --> 00:26:13,750 You do your job, I'll do mine. 232 00:26:13,917 --> 00:26:16,292 I get it, but we're off-camera. 233 00:26:16,458 --> 00:26:20,042 Exactly. If I don't do this now, I won't get it up later. 234 00:26:21,167 --> 00:26:22,250 Gaby, just let him. 235 00:26:22,417 --> 00:26:24,208 You know I'm right. Whatever! 236 00:26:38,500 --> 00:26:42,083 You've done it all? Anal, double penetration? 237 00:26:43,208 --> 00:26:45,917 Anal once, with Pierre Woodman. 238 00:26:46,083 --> 00:26:48,167 Double penetration, never before. 239 00:26:50,208 --> 00:26:51,833 But I want to test it. 240 00:26:53,375 --> 00:26:55,167 It must be good. 241 00:27:01,625 --> 00:27:05,083 I want to be a good actress. 242 00:27:06,125 --> 00:27:07,375 I'm 25. 243 00:27:09,833 --> 00:27:11,042 I'm old. 244 00:27:14,292 --> 00:27:16,458 - You have a boyfriend? - Yes. 245 00:27:17,833 --> 00:27:20,500 - He knows what you do? - Yes. 246 00:28:26,750 --> 00:28:29,583 Because you are a big star. 247 00:29:24,708 --> 00:29:26,167 Mike, let's go. 248 00:30:06,042 --> 00:30:07,875 Leave her alone for a bit. 249 00:30:08,458 --> 00:30:09,500 Leave her alone. 250 00:30:11,250 --> 00:30:14,292 Because suddenly, she wasn't there anymore. 251 00:30:18,417 --> 00:30:19,958 Is she crying? 252 00:30:23,708 --> 00:30:26,708 - She's been working all week long. - All week? 253 00:30:26,875 --> 00:30:28,583 From Monday till today. 254 00:30:28,750 --> 00:30:30,292 Anal sex every day. 255 00:30:36,625 --> 00:30:39,167 I don't know. It was painful. 256 00:34:58,625 --> 00:35:02,083 ORTONA ITALY 257 00:35:04,708 --> 00:35:07,833 One January day, my sister called me. 258 00:35:07,958 --> 00:35:11,583 "Mom is really sick. You have to come home." 259 00:35:11,917 --> 00:35:13,667 I flew straight back from L.A. 260 00:35:13,833 --> 00:35:15,958 I stayed with my mother 261 00:35:16,125 --> 00:35:18,250 until mid-March. 262 00:35:18,417 --> 00:35:19,500 Two whole months. 263 00:35:25,292 --> 00:35:28,000 Every day, at 6 am and 6 pm, 264 00:35:28,167 --> 00:35:31,542 she vomited blood. Every 12 hours. 265 00:35:32,625 --> 00:35:35,417 I have always believed 266 00:35:36,042 --> 00:35:40,292 that it was right for me to take on all her pain. 267 00:35:40,458 --> 00:35:42,375 I prayed to Jesus, 268 00:35:42,625 --> 00:35:47,125 "Please allow me to experience the same suffering when I die." 269 00:35:49,667 --> 00:35:50,958 When my mother died, 270 00:35:51,625 --> 00:35:53,000 I said to her, 271 00:35:53,167 --> 00:35:55,542 "You and I will be together forever. 272 00:35:55,708 --> 00:35:57,125 You're leaving now. 273 00:35:57,250 --> 00:35:59,250 But I'll be there soon." 274 00:36:01,375 --> 00:36:03,042 My reaction to her death 275 00:36:03,167 --> 00:36:04,625 was quite peculiar. 276 00:36:04,792 --> 00:36:06,667 It was... 277 00:36:07,208 --> 00:36:09,083 very ambiguous 278 00:36:09,458 --> 00:36:10,958 and totally surreal. 279 00:36:11,833 --> 00:36:14,667 I can remember this crazy thing 280 00:36:15,417 --> 00:36:18,375 that I've never told anyone, not even my wife. 281 00:36:19,708 --> 00:36:22,875 This woman, a friend of my mother's, 282 00:36:23,250 --> 00:36:25,417 told me to visit her before I left. 283 00:36:25,583 --> 00:36:28,458 She took me in her arms and began to cry. 284 00:36:28,625 --> 00:36:30,958 We cried together. 285 00:36:31,208 --> 00:36:32,625 At one point, 286 00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:35,875 she hugged me very tightly. 287 00:36:37,458 --> 00:36:40,333 Something clicked in my mind. It was weird. 288 00:36:40,875 --> 00:36:43,458 I was overcome by a wave of sexual desire. 289 00:36:44,500 --> 00:36:47,250 We're talking about a woman my mother's age. 290 00:36:47,833 --> 00:36:50,333 I stood up all of a sudden. 291 00:36:51,542 --> 00:36:54,292 I dropped my pants... 292 00:36:54,792 --> 00:36:55,833 and pulled out 293 00:36:55,958 --> 00:36:59,500 my fully-erect cock. 294 00:37:00,042 --> 00:37:01,292 She was speechless. 295 00:37:01,458 --> 00:37:03,042 I stuck it in her mouth. 296 00:37:03,292 --> 00:37:05,292 She didn't say a word. 297 00:37:06,417 --> 00:37:10,167 In three seconds, I came in her mouth. 298 00:37:11,417 --> 00:37:15,583 I pulled up my pants, zipped myself up, 299 00:37:15,875 --> 00:37:18,042 and ran out, mortified. 300 00:37:18,208 --> 00:37:19,792 I never saw her again. 301 00:37:24,417 --> 00:37:27,250 My mother is the most important woman in my life. 302 00:37:27,417 --> 00:37:31,375 Even today, I carry her picture everywhere. 303 00:37:31,542 --> 00:37:32,667 Every night, 304 00:37:32,833 --> 00:37:36,250 every single night since my mother died, 305 00:37:36,417 --> 00:37:39,000 I take out her picture and look at her... 306 00:37:48,375 --> 00:37:49,833 I ask her... 307 00:37:53,583 --> 00:37:55,625 It's as though I'm asking her... 308 00:38:00,458 --> 00:38:03,292 As though I'm asking her if what I do, 309 00:38:03,458 --> 00:38:05,208 day after day... 310 00:38:06,333 --> 00:38:10,542 I need her permission... 311 00:38:15,625 --> 00:38:17,792 to do certain things. 312 00:38:18,667 --> 00:38:21,875 I loved her, and I love her today. 313 00:38:22,042 --> 00:38:24,042 I can't forget her. 314 00:38:26,417 --> 00:38:28,125 I carry her within me 315 00:38:28,292 --> 00:38:31,000 and I'll continue to carry her within me 316 00:38:31,167 --> 00:38:32,708 as a kind of... 317 00:38:33,667 --> 00:38:34,500 conscience. 318 00:38:34,667 --> 00:38:37,625 As if my mother's eyes were telling me, 319 00:38:37,792 --> 00:38:40,792 "Here, you're being good. Here, you're being bad." 320 00:41:04,833 --> 00:41:06,542 There's no wi-fi here. 321 00:41:07,083 --> 00:41:10,125 And I'm in the middle of work, OK? 322 00:41:10,292 --> 00:41:12,667 I love you. Good night, darling. 323 00:41:13,625 --> 00:41:15,375 Good night, Rozsa! 324 00:42:24,458 --> 00:42:27,250 Gaby, look at what she's doing! 325 00:42:45,458 --> 00:42:46,917 She's crying! 326 00:42:47,333 --> 00:42:48,667 Look at the tears! 327 00:43:10,833 --> 00:43:12,708 Oh my god! Nasty... 328 00:43:55,958 --> 00:44:00,333 I'm very happy to be Rocco Siffredi's wife. 329 00:44:00,500 --> 00:44:03,042 The fact that Rocco has sex... 330 00:44:04,750 --> 00:44:08,375 with other woman it's sex, not love, 331 00:44:08,542 --> 00:44:10,167 doesn't bother me. 332 00:44:10,333 --> 00:44:12,167 It's his work. 333 00:44:19,292 --> 00:44:22,417 I could easily watch his movies. 334 00:44:22,583 --> 00:44:24,958 I worked on the set, doing make up. 335 00:44:25,917 --> 00:44:30,000 Sometimes, the girls would describe the things he did to them. 336 00:44:30,167 --> 00:44:33,000 They didn't know I was his wife. 337 00:44:33,167 --> 00:44:35,417 The whole thing was funny. 338 00:44:35,583 --> 00:44:38,625 I know for sure that my husband loves me, 339 00:44:38,792 --> 00:44:40,750 no matter what. 340 00:44:40,917 --> 00:44:42,708 And when he comes home, 341 00:44:42,875 --> 00:44:46,667 he tells me everything that happened on the set. 342 00:44:51,792 --> 00:44:53,875 People often ask me 343 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,083 if I'm jealous. 344 00:44:55,250 --> 00:44:57,083 They ask the question a lot, 345 00:44:57,250 --> 00:44:58,708 but the answer's always "no". 346 00:44:58,875 --> 00:45:02,375 I know where my husband is and what he does. 347 00:45:02,542 --> 00:45:06,917 Most women don't know what their husbands do all day. 348 00:45:09,083 --> 00:45:12,833 I believe that working with all those women 349 00:45:13,542 --> 00:45:16,542 pushes him closer and closer to me. 350 00:45:16,708 --> 00:45:18,667 It makes him give me even more. 351 00:45:41,875 --> 00:45:44,417 Show yourself. Walk around a little. 352 00:45:44,583 --> 00:45:48,208 Gaby, don't start up with that garbage again. 353 00:45:48,375 --> 00:45:52,167 It's not a leisurely walk through the park... 354 00:45:52,333 --> 00:45:54,917 Then talk sooner, so we know you're arriving. 355 00:45:55,042 --> 00:45:56,708 The light's nicer here. 356 00:46:33,167 --> 00:46:35,375 Gaby, you have to move. They stay put. 357 00:46:35,542 --> 00:46:37,708 I can't move around that much. 358 00:46:37,875 --> 00:46:38,792 Cut it out! 359 00:46:38,958 --> 00:46:42,417 You're such a pain in the ass today! Shit! 360 00:48:04,042 --> 00:48:05,250 Thank you! 361 00:48:08,833 --> 00:48:10,500 What a scene! 362 00:48:25,417 --> 00:48:26,458 That was beautiful! 363 00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:30,667 That's the most beautiful scene you've ever done. 364 00:48:30,833 --> 00:48:31,667 Ever! 365 00:48:33,500 --> 00:48:37,125 Sorry, but I don't have the images of you arriving. 366 00:48:37,958 --> 00:48:40,083 Maybe you didn't record them. 367 00:48:40,250 --> 00:48:41,333 Impossible! 368 00:48:41,500 --> 00:48:44,625 You must have forgotten to press REC... 369 00:48:45,375 --> 00:48:47,417 Don't start with me, Rocco. 370 00:48:47,583 --> 00:48:49,708 It's complicated enough, as is. 371 00:48:49,875 --> 00:48:53,042 Press PLAY. That's it! How complicated is that? 372 00:48:53,292 --> 00:48:56,792 The sunshields were in the frame. 373 00:48:56,958 --> 00:49:01,167 They're sticking out, all through your entrance sequence. 374 00:49:01,333 --> 00:49:02,500 Unbelievable! 375 00:49:02,625 --> 00:49:04,167 You can't work a camera here. 376 00:49:04,333 --> 00:49:06,375 Those things are so obvious! 377 00:49:06,542 --> 00:49:10,583 You can see that my face is cropped. 378 00:49:11,167 --> 00:49:14,125 The top of my head is cut off! 379 00:49:14,250 --> 00:49:15,625 Well, we don't have it. 380 00:49:15,833 --> 00:49:19,250 I don't know what to tell you. I need to fix this. 381 00:49:30,458 --> 00:49:32,625 Let me handle this, OK? 382 00:49:33,625 --> 00:49:34,708 I'll fix this. 383 00:50:35,833 --> 00:50:38,667 What shitty luck! Goddamn it! 384 00:51:00,042 --> 00:51:02,333 Women are my passion. 385 00:51:02,875 --> 00:51:04,625 Women are my life, 386 00:51:04,750 --> 00:51:06,417 a never-ending discovery. 387 00:51:06,583 --> 00:51:09,000 I've always tried 388 00:51:09,125 --> 00:51:11,417 to avoid disappointing a woman. 389 00:51:11,583 --> 00:51:13,500 When I meet a woman 390 00:51:13,833 --> 00:51:16,833 who asks me to keep going, to go further, 391 00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:19,625 I can't say to her, "Hang on... 392 00:51:20,250 --> 00:51:22,708 I'm worn out. I need to rest." 393 00:51:25,125 --> 00:51:28,042 I've had sex with 18-year-old girls 394 00:51:28,208 --> 00:51:30,708 and women in their seventies 395 00:51:30,833 --> 00:51:33,125 and eighties, elderly women. 396 00:51:33,292 --> 00:51:37,125 I wanted to explore sexuality from every angle. 397 00:51:37,292 --> 00:51:40,833 What kind of sexuality does a 70-year-old woman have? 398 00:51:41,167 --> 00:51:42,708 What can she give me? 399 00:51:42,875 --> 00:51:45,667 What can I think of 400 00:51:45,792 --> 00:51:50,833 to show her, to give her something she's never known? 401 00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:53,625 This is also part of my work. 402 00:51:54,500 --> 00:51:58,500 Rocco must be ready, always and forever. 403 00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:21,500 Rocco Siffredi 404 00:53:22,333 --> 00:53:24,833 needs both the beautiful and the ugly, 405 00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:26,917 to be Rocco Siffredi. 406 00:53:28,458 --> 00:53:32,583 My addiction has been a problem for the past ten years. 407 00:53:33,208 --> 00:53:36,250 I've hit rock-bottom many times. 408 00:53:37,500 --> 00:53:38,833 I can not 409 00:53:39,000 --> 00:53:40,542 cure my addiction 410 00:53:40,708 --> 00:53:42,667 unless I stop being an actor. 411 00:53:49,625 --> 00:53:52,333 My penis has always been my downfall. 412 00:53:52,583 --> 00:53:54,500 If I continue like this, 413 00:53:54,958 --> 00:53:57,125 things may get much worse. 414 00:53:57,667 --> 00:53:59,500 But that doesn't mean 415 00:54:00,167 --> 00:54:02,000 that I am a total shit. 416 00:54:02,375 --> 00:54:04,333 I would have been one, 417 00:54:04,542 --> 00:54:07,583 if I hadn't tried to change. 418 00:54:13,458 --> 00:54:16,167 Try to hide it. It's too exposed. 419 00:54:16,667 --> 00:54:17,625 Perfect. 420 00:54:18,167 --> 00:54:22,042 Here's the difference between making love to my wife 421 00:54:22,208 --> 00:54:24,042 and making love on the set. 422 00:54:24,458 --> 00:54:26,167 On the set, I fuck. 423 00:54:26,333 --> 00:54:27,375 With my wife, 424 00:54:27,542 --> 00:54:30,875 we can stay in the same position for two hours. 425 00:54:34,458 --> 00:54:35,917 All our friends think 426 00:54:36,042 --> 00:54:39,167 that we live this wild and crazy lifestyle... 427 00:54:39,375 --> 00:54:42,500 That he goes to the office 428 00:54:42,667 --> 00:54:44,958 and has sex with his two secretaries! 429 00:54:47,625 --> 00:54:49,208 It's just not true. 430 00:54:49,708 --> 00:54:54,000 We don't. I hate to disappoint everyone. 431 00:54:54,958 --> 00:54:58,458 In our bedroom, we're very romantic. 432 00:54:59,000 --> 00:55:03,208 Much more conservative and natural. 433 00:55:06,833 --> 00:55:08,875 Rozsa is a flower. 434 00:55:09,083 --> 00:55:12,417 She's a pure soul. Absolute pureness. 435 00:55:12,542 --> 00:55:16,667 She didn't marry me for the size of my cock, 436 00:55:17,750 --> 00:55:19,250 or because I was Rocco Siffredi. 437 00:55:19,417 --> 00:55:22,000 I had given up on the idea of family. 438 00:55:22,167 --> 00:55:23,375 That was my destiny. 439 00:55:23,542 --> 00:55:26,417 Each year, I would say to her, 440 00:55:26,583 --> 00:55:28,792 "What are you doing with me? 441 00:55:28,958 --> 00:55:32,125 You're so beautiful, so classy. 442 00:55:32,292 --> 00:55:33,625 Why are you with me?" 443 00:55:33,792 --> 00:55:36,000 Each year, she would answer, 444 00:55:36,167 --> 00:55:38,417 "I'm bored without you." 445 00:55:39,667 --> 00:55:42,583 VITERBO ITALY 446 00:55:49,083 --> 00:55:53,417 I'm sure she doesn't like it when I'm on the set, 447 00:55:54,958 --> 00:55:56,833 when I make love to other women. 448 00:55:56,958 --> 00:55:59,500 I'm sure it hurts her. 449 00:56:03,083 --> 00:56:04,167 For me, 450 00:56:04,417 --> 00:56:07,583 it's too intimate, 451 00:56:07,750 --> 00:56:09,500 too sinful... 452 00:56:09,917 --> 00:56:11,292 A voice tells me, 453 00:56:11,458 --> 00:56:14,167 "No, it's not right. 454 00:56:14,333 --> 00:56:16,250 You shouldn't be doing this." 455 00:56:17,208 --> 00:56:19,250 In the beginning, he tested me. 456 00:56:19,417 --> 00:56:22,417 He didn't believe he could have 457 00:56:22,542 --> 00:56:24,500 a wife and a family 458 00:56:25,125 --> 00:56:26,500 in his line of work. 459 00:56:29,625 --> 00:56:30,792 When he turned 40, 460 00:56:31,375 --> 00:56:33,125 he told me he wanted to stop. 461 00:56:33,292 --> 00:56:34,458 It was time to stop 462 00:56:34,625 --> 00:56:37,375 because it was getting complicated 463 00:56:37,750 --> 00:56:39,500 for our sons. They were growing up. 464 00:56:39,625 --> 00:56:42,542 Now they had girlfriends. 465 00:56:42,708 --> 00:56:45,583 They knew what his real job was. 466 00:56:48,792 --> 00:56:51,875 I was worried. "Now what? 467 00:56:52,042 --> 00:56:56,792 I can't give you what you get from your films 468 00:56:56,917 --> 00:56:58,167 and those other women." 469 00:56:58,333 --> 00:57:00,292 I was more worried than him. 470 00:57:02,167 --> 00:57:04,708 At one point, I decided to stop. 471 00:57:04,875 --> 00:57:06,042 Then for a whole year, 472 00:57:06,208 --> 00:57:08,375 two or three times a day, what did I do? 473 00:57:08,500 --> 00:57:11,833 I went to see prostitutes, trannies, old women... 474 00:57:11,958 --> 00:57:13,667 I walked in and whipped it out. 475 00:57:13,833 --> 00:57:16,083 "I want to fuck, I want sex". 476 00:57:16,958 --> 00:57:19,250 But as soon as I started up, 477 00:57:19,417 --> 00:57:21,333 I would see my wife's face. 478 00:57:21,458 --> 00:57:24,292 I would see my kids. I would ask myself, 479 00:57:24,417 --> 00:57:25,583 "Why am I doing this?" 480 00:57:28,167 --> 00:57:29,458 Hard to explain. 481 00:57:32,250 --> 00:57:34,125 My wife would say, 482 00:57:35,083 --> 00:57:38,458 "Why did you stop? No one asked you to. 483 00:57:38,583 --> 00:57:40,458 "Why go see whores? 484 00:57:40,875 --> 00:57:42,167 "Go back to movies." 485 00:57:42,333 --> 00:57:43,583 She understood that 486 00:57:43,708 --> 00:57:46,958 when I was home alone, with her, 487 00:57:47,125 --> 00:57:50,792 a part of me was unhappy. She knew it. 488 00:57:50,917 --> 00:57:52,500 My wife understood 489 00:57:52,792 --> 00:57:55,750 that I couldn't live without porn. She got it. 490 00:57:56,375 --> 00:57:57,792 I'm very lucky... 491 00:57:57,958 --> 00:58:00,292 Not because I have a big dick, 492 00:58:00,458 --> 00:58:02,250 but because I have Rozsa. 493 00:58:04,583 --> 00:58:07,125 BUDAPEST HUNGARY 494 00:58:14,500 --> 00:58:16,375 You've never asked 495 00:58:16,958 --> 00:58:18,750 why I make porn flicks. 496 00:58:19,250 --> 00:58:20,958 This one needs charging. 497 00:58:21,583 --> 00:58:24,208 - Can you charge this one? - Give it to me. 498 00:58:26,625 --> 00:58:29,917 Did you already know, or not? 499 00:58:31,292 --> 00:58:32,125 I did. 500 00:58:32,542 --> 00:58:35,000 Leo doesn't know. 501 00:58:35,583 --> 00:58:37,042 He's more critical. 502 00:58:40,125 --> 00:58:41,250 Right, Leo? 503 00:58:41,875 --> 00:58:43,417 You're more critical. 504 00:58:48,208 --> 00:58:50,667 It shows. I can tell! 505 00:58:50,833 --> 00:58:52,958 I can tell! 506 00:58:55,292 --> 00:58:58,292 Life is complicated, very complicated. 507 00:58:58,458 --> 00:59:00,458 For many years, I thought about 508 00:59:00,583 --> 00:59:04,417 what Lorenzo and Leonardo would think when they saw me... 509 00:59:04,583 --> 00:59:06,083 You've seen me, right? 510 00:59:08,333 --> 00:59:11,000 Once, when I was little. 511 00:59:11,458 --> 00:59:13,167 You saw Tarzan. So? 512 00:59:14,042 --> 00:59:16,792 I don't usually watch that stuff. 513 00:59:22,083 --> 00:59:23,917 Your work doesn't bother me. 514 00:59:24,042 --> 00:59:27,917 I've always considered it to be a normal job. 515 00:59:28,417 --> 00:59:29,625 And as a father... 516 00:59:30,375 --> 00:59:33,833 I couldn't have dreamed for a better father. 517 00:59:36,292 --> 00:59:38,667 I'm very proud to be your son. 518 01:00:11,958 --> 01:00:15,125 This is what I've always done. I've fought. 519 01:00:17,917 --> 01:00:20,000 I learned that life was hard, 520 01:00:20,500 --> 01:00:22,292 when Claudio died. 521 01:00:23,042 --> 01:00:24,958 I saw my mother suffer, 522 01:00:25,708 --> 01:00:29,583 and I learned that life was beautiful but painful. 523 01:00:29,708 --> 01:00:31,917 I've worn out my entire body, 524 01:00:32,083 --> 01:00:36,458 from my back to my shoulders, arms and knees. 525 01:00:36,625 --> 01:00:38,208 Everything aches. 526 01:00:38,417 --> 01:00:40,667 But I live with it. That's how it is. 527 01:00:40,833 --> 01:00:42,625 I wanted pain, 528 01:00:42,833 --> 01:00:44,000 and I got it. 529 01:00:44,375 --> 01:00:45,625 It doesn't scare me. 530 01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:49,333 I need to suffer to feel alive. 531 01:00:56,083 --> 01:00:58,417 I didn't have to do it... 532 01:00:58,875 --> 01:01:01,167 But it's like I was looking for 533 01:01:01,625 --> 01:01:03,000 a way... 534 01:01:04,000 --> 01:01:07,000 an opportunity to say, 535 01:01:07,333 --> 01:01:09,000 "Enough! I've had enough!" 536 01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:12,750 I've had sex 537 01:01:13,083 --> 01:01:16,750 in some extreme situations. 538 01:01:17,750 --> 01:01:18,958 Extreme... 539 01:01:19,083 --> 01:01:21,583 where I was risking my life. 540 01:01:21,833 --> 01:01:24,958 Unconsciously, I was looking for death. 541 01:01:25,917 --> 01:01:27,625 I can't seem to 542 01:01:29,167 --> 01:01:33,542 enjoy a calm, beautiful, carefree life. 543 01:01:33,708 --> 01:01:37,250 I'm compelled to destroy it. 544 01:02:33,167 --> 01:02:35,542 You're like Jesus. Is this the Last Supper? 545 01:02:35,708 --> 01:02:37,667 The Last Supper! For Chrissake! 546 01:02:37,792 --> 01:02:40,417 You're at the top of your game. You're Number One! 547 01:02:40,542 --> 01:02:43,917 Can you imagine if every Hollywood actor quit acting 548 01:02:44,083 --> 01:02:45,417 when they turned 50? 549 01:02:47,667 --> 01:02:50,917 In this very American cast, I'd like to have 550 01:02:51,083 --> 01:02:54,125 a special role. 551 01:02:54,250 --> 01:02:55,542 I see myself as... 552 01:02:56,625 --> 01:02:58,583 Kelly called me, you know... 553 01:02:58,750 --> 01:02:59,833 No, no, no! 554 01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:01,792 Yes, she called. 555 01:03:02,958 --> 01:03:04,375 What did she say? 556 01:03:07,667 --> 01:03:10,625 I told her she'd be an incredible MILF. 557 01:03:10,792 --> 01:03:11,792 So she says... 558 01:03:14,917 --> 01:03:16,583 The last film you did together, 559 01:03:16,708 --> 01:03:19,583 you argued and hit each other. 560 01:03:19,750 --> 01:03:21,833 You spit at each other, 561 01:03:21,958 --> 01:03:25,083 in each other's eyes, ears and hair. 562 01:03:25,833 --> 01:03:29,000 She was a psychopath then. She still is. 563 01:03:29,167 --> 01:03:30,708 That is such bullshit! 564 01:03:30,833 --> 01:03:33,833 Kelly made porn history. When fans talk about 565 01:03:34,458 --> 01:03:37,125 my most important films, 566 01:03:37,292 --> 01:03:40,750 her name always comes up. "Kelly Stafford!" 567 01:03:45,625 --> 01:03:48,583 STILTON ENGLAND 568 01:10:35,667 --> 01:10:38,667 STILTON ENGLAND 569 01:14:15,417 --> 01:14:19,500 We're in good hands with him. His girls do things our way. 570 01:14:19,667 --> 01:14:23,458 With everyone else, we always have to explain things. 571 01:14:23,667 --> 01:14:25,542 Behave yourself around Spiegler. 572 01:14:25,708 --> 01:14:28,292 If you pull your usual shit, he'll get annoyed. 573 01:14:28,458 --> 01:14:31,125 And then he'll tell me to piss off. 574 01:14:31,292 --> 01:14:33,417 Spiegler speaks his mind. 575 01:14:34,083 --> 01:14:35,583 I'll behave. 576 01:14:35,875 --> 01:14:39,167 He loves us, he loves our work, 577 01:14:39,333 --> 01:14:40,625 and he respects us. 578 01:14:40,792 --> 01:14:44,250 But you have to be very careful. 579 01:20:51,833 --> 01:20:54,708 You're all I have in this world. 580 01:20:54,833 --> 01:20:58,083 Sometimes it's hard for me to hear you say, 581 01:20:58,250 --> 01:21:02,083 "You're a useless piece of shit. You didn't do it right..." 582 01:21:02,458 --> 01:21:04,417 Gaby, I'm in the middle of fucking. 583 01:21:04,583 --> 01:21:07,542 You always make the same mistakes with the camera. 584 01:21:07,667 --> 01:21:10,333 Am I supposed to congratulate you? 585 01:21:10,750 --> 01:21:12,792 You're so aggressive! 586 01:21:12,917 --> 01:21:16,917 You're like a cat... always lashing out at someone. 587 01:21:17,125 --> 01:21:19,125 You're always exaggerating. 588 01:26:35,083 --> 01:26:37,042 It's OK, it's over. 589 01:27:03,792 --> 01:27:05,417 I've had it, Rocco. 590 01:27:05,583 --> 01:27:07,917 - Chill out! - Enough! 591 01:28:20,250 --> 01:28:21,667 How's it going, James? 592 01:33:51,083 --> 01:33:54,333 Not like that. Tilt it to one side. 593 01:33:54,500 --> 01:33:55,667 Like that. 594 01:33:55,792 --> 01:33:58,458 Tip it, or it won't go through the door. 595 01:33:59,708 --> 01:34:01,625 Let me see from inside.